I have been quite busy.
And I mean that in all sense.
But busy isn’t always productive. I had to cut down some of the things, and then later realised I just needed to put them on a different block on the schedule.
The trial and error of routines, when the changes depend on something external is pretty much cliché. But could I say, being a special needs parent is on a different level?
I have contemplated a lot after that big “What If” — the recommendation opportunity I had to the University of Madinah sometime at the end of last year. I’m not one to dwell on what’s last, but this made a big impact on my whole newyear introspection.
And now that muharram is here, I think I have it all figured out. It only feels hectic, for some reason. Pursuing IslamicStudies is something I never thought I would be doing if I had to go back a decade’s worth of years in my life. It’s not only because I’m a revert, but I could say I’m definitely 99% polar opposite of who I was.
This year I really felt the change.
It’s almost like, I knew somehow the dots connect..
The picture seemed complete..
That it was meant to be.
I just can’t figure out where, when and how it (change) happened.
I still feel like me, but I wouldn’t say I knew me if I was gonna ask my teenage or even 20s self.
Anyway, coffee isn’t back in my life still. And maybe that is one big factor. I feel exceptionally tired, and never realised I needed caffeine to get me through the next half of my day.
My sleep pattern is haywired and I don’t know when the chronic respiratory issues will be over because it’s been consistent since COVID happened to me.
But still life goes on and I rant.
Partly because I almost lost all my files in my external HDD (dealing with Ubuntu is not for the faint hearted), and that WordPress + hosting is just giving me a hard time with getting connected to my blog with their app. XMLRPC issues, for those who know what I mean.
Because, is it too much to ask for a plugin to actually work when , by right it could be “installed”? Like what is the point otherwise? Also, why do you make an open source software that poses security issues on a user?
Beats me.
I don’t know.
And I don’t care anymore.
Life goes on, so we move on.
I will still blog like I have been doing for 20 years.
Instagram did Threads like they don’t care if people know it’s a complete rip-off of Twitter.
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